CHAPTER 44
CHAPTER 44
AMELIA'S P.O.V
Kaden didn’t stick around after that. I didn't know how he found out about Blake but I didn't want to say anything because I was worried that he would hurt him. My silence however may have done more harm than good because Kaden did not speak to me after that.
He walked out of the room even though I tried to speak to him and according to Clara; he walked out of the house without looking back. He had not been back to see me and it had been three days. I tried to ask Caleb about him but Caleb would only give me simple answers and not offer anything else. Clara told me that Kaden had probably told him not to say anything to me.
I couldn’t help but feel bad especially because my wolf would not step reminding me that I had hurt our mate with my actions. I used to think that getting a wolf would be fun but in reality it was like having an alternate persona in your mind who never left you alone. She pestered me day and night and I actually wanted to apologize to Kaden but I was too weak to leave the house.
Despite the fact that I was awake, my body had not fully recovered and I slept most of the day away and the few hours I was awake, I used to learn how to use my newfound talents as a wolf. I had to learn how to tune out certain sounds or scents so I wouldn't be overwhelmed and I had continued with my training
I had gotten so used to it that when I got back today, I was barely even winded. I freshened up for school and put on a pair of ripped jeans and a beautiful wrap top. There was a silver of skin between the waistband of my jeans and my shirt and the weather was chilly so I picked up a warm jacket to carry along just in case.
I was finishing up with my hair when I heard a slight knock on my door and Clara walked in. She was also dressed for school but she was in a long maxi dress that flowed to her ankles and her hair hung down in ringlets around her face.From NôvelDrama.Org.
“Do you have an extra hair tie?” she asked as she rushed into the room and I quickly picked up a spare one and handed it to her.
She thanked me and tied her hair up into a messy ponytail. When she was done, she was about to leave but something made her turn her attention towards me and she stopped to stare at me for a few seconds. I couldn't help but feel self conscious and I quickly glanced at the mirror to make sure there wasn’t anything wrong with my appearance. When I was sure that I was fine. I turned to her.
“Is everything okay?” I asked and she seemed to snap out of whatever stupor she was in. “You look different- a good different.” she quickly added then she made her way over to me. “You look more like an adult and you look very beautiful.”
I couldn’t help but flush pink at her compliment. I was not used to people giving me compliments so I was not sure how to answer them. I mumbled a thank you under my breath and I saw her smile. She reached out and adjusted the wrapping of my dress.
She pulled back. "Are you ready? It's been a few days so you might have a lot to catch up on.” ‘I'm as ready as I will ever be.”
The drive to school felt unusually long. Clara wanted to drive me but I assured her that I was fine and I could take myself but the truth was that I wanted a few minutes to myself in order to wrap my head around the things that had happened recently. In just a few days, my life felt like a soap opera and I didn’t even know where to start.
I was not completely surprised that Kaden had found out who Blake was. I should have known that after their huge fight, he was going to search up on him and find out everything he could. I was shocked however that it took that short amount of time. When he asked me about Blake, I didn’t know what to say.
I have been so confused about the entire thing and about both of them. I am not sure exactly how I feel when it comes to either of them. On one hand, I am very grateful to Kaden for everything he has done and I understand why he did it and I also feel some form of attraction to him, but on the other hand we have Blake the man I have loved and done everything just to be with and he rejected me. I wasnt sure what I felt and it felt too soon for me to make a decision.
I understood how Kaden may have felt hurt by my actions but the truth was that I couldn't lie to him and in that moment. I was thinking about Blake albeit not in the way he may have thought. I had always prayed for a mate but I did not know that having one would bring so much trouble and confusion. I couldn't talk to anyone about it because I didnt know how they would react to it and my wolf had been completely quiet since.
As if summoned, she stirred when I thought about her. “What do you think I should do?” I asked her. "It has been a few days and Kaden refuses to speak to me.”
“I’m not going to tell you what to do,” she said simply. “What I will tell you is that you have to cut off ties with one of them. You cannot have them both and this problem will keep arising unless you make a choice and stick with it.”
As soon as she said that, she went back to being quiet and I let out a groan of frustration. I knew she was right but I did not know where or how to start. I was either going to have to permanently cut ties with the man I had loved my entire life or the man who had given me refuge when I had nowhere to go.
I was still thinking about it when I got to the frontof school. I knew I would havecto worry about it later Se I shoved every thought of mates iato the back of my head and got out of the can) No one paid much attention to. me as I walked through thé halls. Eyéryone was busy doing-their own thing and it wasn’t until Got to my first class that I felt eyes on me.
I didn't see Lucy but I saw Aiden and Serena on opposite sides of the class. I knew they both wanted me to sit with them but I remembered Serena's warning and something about Aiden seemed to rub me the wrong way today so I ignored him and sat next to Serena
“You made the right choice,” she whispered to me and before I could ask anything, the teacher walked into the class.
For the duration of the class, I could feel Aiden’s eyes on me. He had an intense gaze just like Kaden but unlike his cousin, his stare did not elicit a good reaction from me. It was difficult trying to keep myself from looking towards him the entire class even though he was desperately trying to will it.
At the end of class, I wanted to rush out but somehow as I was grabbing my things. Aiden made his way over to me. Serena cast a wary glance at me but she refused to look at Aiden. I couldn’t help but feel like there was something going on between them but I had no proof.
“Can I talk to you?” Aiden asked me and I knew there was no way I could get out of it. ‘I'll catch up with you later, Serena,” She hesitated but finally. she grabbed her bags and left. I turned to Aiden. “Hi, Aiden.”
I grabbed my bag and started walking out of the classroom quickly hoping he wouldn't be able to keep up but he easily matched my strides. He walked right next to me as if he had nowhere to be and that was when I remembered that our next class was not for another hour at least.
“There's something different about you,” Aiden announced out of the blue and I glanced at him. “I don't know exactly what it is but there is something It might be the way you look but I think it has more to do with your aura- it is different.”
“Thank you,” I said unsure of how to respond.
Earlier, Clara had said something different and f began to wonder if there was sOmething I was unaware of. Did shifting make you appear < different? Did it change how peeple perceived you? I knew the best’ person to answer that question was Kaden but as he was not speaking to me, I decided I would 38k Devin when I got home.
“If that's everything,” I began slowly as I started to inch away. “I need to go to the library.
I started to leave but Aiden reached out and grabkied my upper arm. There was something unsettling about theway heheldmeandI = quickly snatched my hand out ofthis grip. We had never seemed so —: intersted i in me before and I jow it was like he was eager about something. I didn’t knowewhat his problem was but I knew that whatever it was, it was not good.
“Please don't grab me next time,” I said softly not wanting to upset him but wanting him to get the meme I was trying to pass across. “You're right. I’m sorry,” he raised his hands in mock surrender. “I was just wondering if you wanted to join my- study group.”
He hesitated before saying the word study and I knew that wasn’t his first choice of words.
“No, I’m sorry,” I started to inch away but he closed the gap between us once again.
“It's nothing serious,” he tried to convince me. “It is just a few of us that meet outside of school to study. I assure you that it is nothing crazy.” I wanted to get away from the conversation as soon as possible so I inched a little bit away from him once more.
“I have to report to Kaden every day,” I blurted out and I saw an unfamiliar expression cross his face. “I have to go, I'm sorry.”
I rushed away before he could speak and even though I left him, I could still feel the weight of his stare on me.