Chapter 30
Reign’S POV
I don’t even know what exactly is going on right now. I don’t know what is actually happening to Alpha Hardin. One minute he is all mad and furious at me, one minute he is ordering his guards to lock me up and the next minute he’s carrying me in his arms.
His actions puzzle me a great deal.
I’m not going to lie that I haven’t been thinking about what he did to me last night.
No, it’s not what you are thinking about.
I’m not thinking about the fact that he ordered his guards to lock me up in the silver prison, I’m not thinking about that at all.
Instead, I keep reminiscing the moment he carried me bridal style in his arms to my bedroom and I can’t believe that actually happened. Like, my Alpha, my very own mate actually carried me in his arms for the first time in forever, he actually took pity on me. You have no idea how that makes me feel.
That’s just to prove that somewhere in that chest of his, he actually has a heart that cares for me. He actually got all the guards who tortured me last night punished. He punished them severely and I am beyond shocked that he has defended me.
Like I said before, I really do have no idea what is going on with him.
I swear.
I hear a gentle knock on my room door and when I go to open it, I see Ma’am Sophia and without warning, I burst into tears and rush into her arms as I cry hard in her arms. I’m so happy that she has come to check up on me.
“Reign, I heard whet happened, are you alright?” She asks concerned as she leads me to the bed and when we both sit on it, I just nod my head and she gives me a queer look.
“Tell me what happened. I know you weren’t trying to escape. What were you doing in the woods with a dagger in your hand?” She asks with all seriousness and I just bow my head down as I play with my fingers nervously. “Reign” She calls gently and I look up at here. She stretches her hand forward and tucks a few loose strands of hair behind my ear and smiles.
“You can tell me anything sweetheart, I won’t judge you. I promise”
“I … I … just wanted to end all this suffering, I wanted to kill myself, but the Moon goddess won’t let me”
“What?” She asks furious and I just bow my head down again. “Why would you ever think of committing such sacrilege?”
“Because I can’t take it anymore Ma’am. Everyone despises me, including my very own mate. You have no idea how difficult it is to live with the thought that my very own mate despises me. I can’t take it anymore. I just wanted to end my life, but the Moon goddess won’t let me” I explain bitterly as tears come flying down my cheeks and she looks at me with creased brows.
“What do you mean by, the Moon goddess won’t let you?”
“I tried stabbing myself countless times but the knife kept falling off. I tried to slit my wrists open, but the moment I slit it, it healed instantly. She kept sabotaging everything for me”
“That’s because you have a mission on this earth Reign?”
“You mean the mission of torture and misfortune?”
“No, remember you are a Luna and you have a whole pack to lead”
“What pack? The same pack whose members despise and take pleasure in taunting and torturing me when ever they get slightest chance? If this is what it take to be a Luna, then I don’t want to be one.”
“This is not what it take to be Luna. I don’t know why your case is different, but just know this when you finally take your place as Luna, you will have power over them all. They will all bow to your will”
“Ma’am, I don’t want to be a Luna, I just want to be a free werewolf, I just want to be redeemed, I just want to be loved by my mate. I don’t care about the power and dominion, I just want to be like every other werewolf. That’s all I want” I explain crying and she just takes me into her arms and cradles me.
“Alpha Hardin really has no idea what he is missing out”
“Talking about Alpha Hardin” I say as I sniffle years and disengage myself from her hug. “I don’t seem to get him. Last night he ordered his guards to lock me up in the Silver prison and they had me tortured without his command. When Beta Miguel told him about it, he came over to the dungeon and carried me in his arms all the way here” I explain and she shoots me a surprised glance.
“He actually carried you in his arms?”
“Trust me, I was just as shocked as you are right now. I still can’t believe that actually happened”
“No one can evade this mate bond. Not even the most Powerful Werewolf Alpha in the entire world. Alpha Hardin can claim to not care about you all he wants, but he knows deep down in his heart, he cares and he wants you. He’s just bitter about the past and that’s because he doesn’t know the entire truth, when he does, you can bet me, he’ll come crawling on his knees for you to forgive him” She rants and I just scoff in total disbelieve.
Alpha Hardin will rather die than get on his knees and beg for my forgiveness. He has got an enormous pride and I don’t think he will be able to swallow it and try to reunite with me.
He can never do that.
“Alpha Hardin would rather die than beg me Ma’am” I point out with a painful smile.
“Wanna bet?” she asks stretching her hands forward and I just stare at her in amusement.
I wonder why she is always so confident about Alpha Hardin and I getting together one day.
“Why are you always so positive about us getting together someday?”
“Because you two are mates, Alpha and your Luna of the entire Wall Street pack, and come rain, come sun, the two of you are going to be united one day, whether you like it or not!” She says firmly and I just shake my head and smile.
Her optimistic nature is intriguing and I wish I was like her. She can move mountains with her words and imaginations.
“Until then” o say in defeat as o smile, there’s no way I can beat her in this argument. I just have comply with her as always.
She rises up from the bed.
“I have to go and check on the other workers. Make sure to get enough rest, Am I clear?”
“Yes Ma’am”
“Good, see you around” She says and walks out of the bedroom. The moment she closes the door behind her, I smile foolishly as I recall myself in Alpha Hardin’s strong arms.
While I was in his arms last night, I felt like nothing in this world can hurt me.
If that’s what is feels like to be in my mates arms, then I pray the Moon goddess hears me out and makes things right between us.
My mate and my Alpha, u know I’m not supposed to love him.
What I’m supposed to be feeling for him right now is hatred, but surprisingly, I don’t.Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
I just have this giddy feeling in me that causes my heart to flutter whenever I recall what he did to me last night.
I’m totally hopeless.
Please, give me some advice.