Chapter 23 Secret love
Ethan sat comfortably in his two thousand and eighteen models of the BMW version of his car, it was sparkling, and as the tune of the music was played on his favorite radio station, he decided to hum along with it. On the playlist, the song that had just being tuned was RIGHT BY MY SIDE by Christ Brown and Nicki, he loved the song right to his bone marrow.
… I’m not leaving if you are not by my side.
So he hummed as the song played.
The evening had been a very heated one especially after his discussion with Don Oscar. Ethan knows what is good for him, he has to do a plan to murder Xavier Barley. He knows deep down in him that this mission is never going to be like others that he has had to do in his previous life. Now, it is different, Xavier will be aware of the fact that he has people trailing behind him to bring him down, thus will secure himself by making use of his security men.
This is actually going to be tough, but then, voting wouldn’t take place until two weeks from now, so Ethan has to act now. His mind was blocked, this is a very delicate meeting, there is only one chance involved, and he has only one bullet to spare for the man’s head, it Is kind of frustrating, the worst thing that she can ever do right now.
But then, each time Ethan thinks about letting these things slip away, the things about the bright side of the coin, it was kind of awkward, the worst thing that she can ever think about right now, but then, Ethan shook his head lightly. Suddenly, his head drifted from all these things, it is not his fault that he is an assassin, the best one in the whole of Douala. It is going to be hot to know that he wants something and can’t get it, like seriously, it might make people to judge his authenticity because he always does that the time, and just thinking about it right now, it is more than anything than anything that she can actually think about.
Sighing, he let the words slipped out of his mind. He begged his mind to stay and think about Ruby. It is past midnight, and he needs to know what the lady a doing right now. It is not like he doesn’t trust her enough to go to the shop and return back I the house, it is just that she is behaving strangely just of recent.
As he allowed the words to sink down in his mind, a light shudder strike down his body, it was like nothing he had ever seen before, more like that, Ethan hated the fact that his mind was making hasty generalizations about something that ain’t real. The issue is that she just tried her best to withdraw her mind from these rough thoughts because it would never do him any good. The deal is, Ethan had never felt this way about Ruby, he always knows her as his lark, she has always accepted her position not to talk back at the boss, or her life will be at stake.
Deep down in Ethan’s mind he knows that he can’t do anything to Ruby, hell now, she had always been that one person that had always succeeded in making him soft, and like seriously, that is awkward, more than anything he has ever got to experience so far.
Each time Ethan has a bad day, or a problem with someone he needs to settle, but was left unfinished, he already knows the right thing to do and the person to bring down that anger problems too__ Ruby. Like seriously, every time Ethan slaps her, she always flies across the room, she can’t possibly do anything, most at times as helpless as the words itself. The worst thing is, Ruby has never tried to talk back at Ethan even once, he knew that it was because he was afraid of her, she had definitely seen what Ethan is capable of doing.
It was in front of her that Ethan had assassinated all those people the day that she had been kidnapped, he had seen it, her eyes were about to pop out from her sockets, and when he had pointed the gun at her with the aim of wiping her away, that was when he knew that Ruby had a heart made up of gold. The manner in which she had broken down crying while covering her eyes is one thing that he didn’t expect it to happen. Hell no! he had not expected such drama to take place, and even though it had, he definitely didn’t have the courage to pull the trigger.From NôvelDrama.Org.
Ruby was beautiful, more than the words itself, she knew how to play her game, to ask for mercy, and other than during, she preferred to give herself out to the assassin instead of being killed. There is no doubt that it must have been some hard decisions to overcomes but then, she did, and that when Ruby had surely discovered that she had totally been under the possession of a man that doesn’t want her to leave her life the way it pleases her.
Like seriously, Ethan shook his head from left to right, he knows that these number of years that he had held Ruby in his hostage is much. Two years isn’t two days and there is nothing that makes him more happy than the fact that he didn’t have to spend those years alone. But then, he didn’t have to openly show it, hell no, It will be more like things wouldn’t work well because he can’t figure out how his emotions had been buckled up and left in the hands of a lady.
Deep down in Ethan’s mind, he knows that he had some tingling sensation each time the lady is around him, those feelings had long been there, just that he doesn’t know how to express himself using body language, signs, and words. He is so damn poor with it, it is more like something he doesn’t want to witness anymore, but that is it, nothing more to be added onto it.
Ethan regretted the fact that he had not earlier expressed the way he feels to Ruby, even though he had to be a beast to her for two years, Ruby’s attention towards him had never changed, or had she stopped taking care of him the way he uses to do. Instead, everything is going on smoothly, as planned when he had first taken hostage of her, it is kind of a horrible nightmare, one that he is not ready to give in to.
Ethan knows that he is the villain, there is no doubt about that, he beats Ruby the way he wants it, and that is because he knows that deep down in them, matters are being serious, worse than the way they actually see things, and even though Ruby has never complained, or talk back at him, he knows that things aren’t the best. They have never been neither will they ever because he will release his wrath over her.
The worst part of being with Ruby is that no matter how had she had tried to mingle with Ethan, to at least to his cracking points, where he is weak, what he likes and as well dislikes so that she can amend her ways, Ethan had never given her something of that sort. Instead, he would slap her when never she tries finding such a thing by herself. It is kind of awkward, worst than what he had seen in her entire life.
Sighing, Ethan had the urge to brush all these thoughts from his mind, after spending one hell of an evening with Don Oscar, he feels like he is so terrible. He wished he was already at home now, at least, he would go to Ruby’s room, ready to take advantage of her. This is not the first time Ethan and Ruby are having premarital sex, neither will he be the last.
In fact, although throughout the scene, Ruby always stays there like a wet bag of cocoa, unmovable, and ready not to moan, this always infuriates Ethan the most.
Ethan vividly remembers the first day that he had kidnapped her from Buea and had brought her to Douala, to his home where he was hiding her for the main time. Ruby had asked him to do whatever he wanted with her, except killing her, and he had gladly accepted it, more than anything in his entire life. She wasn’t thinking when she said that because that same night, Ethan took her pride away.
He had feasted on her body, watched her cry in silence, and when she didn’t want to react to his advances, what had he done to her? molest her body like known others could ever exist again. This is one of the things that aren’t good at all, he knew that the lady had been in pain but then, it didn’t bother him the least. He enjoyed teasing her, that made him feel more manly, but then he didn’t know that it was cowardly to force oneself on a lady. He is a beast, and it doesn’t even move him the least, instead, all what he did is to sink deep into her honeypot.
Yes! all the memories were clear in Ethan’s mind, and although he hates himself so much, he doesn’t bother about that, he knows that things will be better, they definitely will, but then, Ruby wouldn’t even want to talk to him anymore. He wished he could explain himself to Ruby now, maybe he would believe her, and things will work well for them, who knows they might start a secret family, but on a second note, Ethan believes that he doesn’t really like Ruby, he is just thinking about her and letting these funny things fill his head because there is no doubt about it, absolutely none at all.
Suddenly, Ethan had the urge to make peace with Ruby, who knows maybe he can really work things out with the girl, but then, Ruby had never faked anything out since he had met her, and that is the worst thing that he can think about, the worse kind of situation at all times, but then, Ethan didn’t mind about it, there is no doubt that the lady is going to think at first that Ethan has surely hit his head on a place, and the effect might be so hard to wipe off his mind.
That is true, there is no doubt about it, but then, is apologizing to Ruby worth it? is he even willing to be happy, like find true happiness like the one he had truly found while with Ruby? it is true that he has to be nothing but a beast, the girl would think from the first lines of his speech that he is lying. but then, was he really lying? hell no! Ethan is being damn serious but his last experiences with Ruby wouldn’t let him go free, it will keep trying him down as if he had nothing to leave for, and that is the worst thing that can ever happen to him.
To be humiliated.
Well, Ruby has been nothing but a darling to her, she knows about that one, and that is the sad truth about it, just so bad, more than anything he can ever even think about. Like seriously, Ethan wishes to be genuinely happy, and even though it has to take him this long to find out that a part of his happiness was attached to Ruby’s own, he is ready to grab it back.
That wouldn’t be a difficult task, and he hopes that the girl wouldn’t do anything foolish because that wouldn’t stop him from slapping her or beating her too. In fact, this whole idea is still under process.