I’m Just His Wife

“was God true? If I pray, will he hear me?” I asked out of nowhere.

She sighed. “Sometimes, I wonder if God hears my prayers. Maybe sometimes, yes and sometimes not but I know he still has a plan for me. Just pray, Ivan. Don’t be double minded. Be steadfast, be immovable so that you can always bound in the things of God. Don’t allow your mind to sway and shift when it comes to worshiping, believing and trusting God. Keep your mind stayed on Him. Let His word be your guide. Don ‘t allow your situation to cause you doubt what God has said. God was all-powerful and all-knowing. He was well able to deliver you no matter what you were going through … ”

I smiled. Rigella was a rare type of a girl. How come I didn’t notice it?

“One little prayer can change one huge situation because prayer was power, Ivan …” she smiled sweetly at me.

“Let’s pray then …” I said, smiling.

She closed her eyes and did sign of the cross so do I.

Dear Lord God, whatever happens, please let me stay with this woman until the last breath of my life. Take care of our little angel there, in heaven. I know, I’m asking too much because it’s been a long time since I prayed but please, grant my prayer. I can’t imagine my life without her and our son, Ice. Thank you for all the blessings you have given me and … thank you for giving me an almost perfect family. Thank you so much. Amen.

I signed of the cross again and opened my eyes. I saw Rigella sign of the cross as well and opened her eyes. She smiled at me.

“It’s comforting, isn’t it? Just trust Him, Ivan. We can handle it …”

I nodded. “Yeah. God was everything.”

“It was also a long time before I realized that God can help me so I understand if you haven’t accepted him very well. You can take it slow. Pray, then let it go. Don’t try to manipulate or force the outcome. Just trust God to open the right doors at the right time. Let go … and let God. ”

I didn’t say anything so I just kissed him.

“But, I realized something …” I said after.

“What was it?” She asked.

“I love you …” I said with sincerity.

Rigella’s POV

‘thanks for coming …” I smiled sparingly and shook hands with Mom’s best friend Tita Ranette.

He nodded and smiled sadly. “My condolences, sister …”

‘thank you …” I said and swallowed to hold back my tears.

I made Tita sit down and when no one came to sympathize I sat down again in the front and looked at my parents’ coffin.

My parents, they were the best people I have ever met. They raised me well, taught me what was right and wrong, and loved me so much. It’s just really sad because they’re gone.

I smiled at the thought that they might be with my baby now. Even though I lost three important people, I knew God had a plan for me.

“Hey …”

I turned to the speaker. It’s Ivan. I smiled at him and he sat down next to me and then put his arm around me. He put my head on his shoulder so I leaned on him.

“Hmm, have you delivered Ice yet?” I will ask.

“Yeah. Creed’s taking care of him, don’t worry. By the way, were you tired? Do you want to take a break?”

I sighed. “I’m not tired. I can still …”

“You sure?”

“Yup ..”

I felt him nod and kiss my head.

On this hill of Mom and Dad, I never cried. They told me before, I will never cry that they were the reason.

“Do you want to sue Lara?” He asked out of nowhere.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

My eyes widened and moved away a little from him. I stared at him and it seemed like he just didn’t have what he said.

“Wha … What?” I was shocked by the question.

It’s been four days since I got out of the hospital but it still hurts. But I just hope in god for everything.

She sighed and clasped her two hands.

“She’s the reason why our baby’s gone, Rigella. Let’s file a case against her …” she was calm but I could see the anger in her eyes.

I closed my eyes emphatically. “Never mind…”

When I opened my eyes I saw the frown on his forehead. “What? Why?”

“Let karma punish her. Besides, I don’t want to have another relationship with that woman …”

“If that’s what you want then. But tell me right away when you change your mind. I can easily call the police and let them bring that bitch to jail.”

I swallowed because I could feel the anger in his voice. Who wouldn’t be angry with the person at fault for losing your child? As for me, I was really angry but I didn’t understand that. I really draw strength from God.

Ivan’s POV

I slowly laid Rigella down on the bed who was sound asleep. Probably because he was tired of taking care of his parents’ hill.

“I love you …” I whispered at her ear and kissed her forehead.

I was about to lie down next to him when my cellphone rang. I patiently sighed and took my cellphone from my pocket.

I gritted my teeth as I’ve read the name of the caller. I immediately answered the call. Damn, the earlier anger I forgot for a moment was back again.

“What now, Lara?” I can clearly hear my stone cold voice.

“I … Ivan, let’s … let’s talk please …” I could hear him sobbing on the other line but I ignored it.

If before, I was hurt when she cried, now not anymore. I didn’t even notice in the eleven years of our relationship that he behaved. The habit was bad.