Chapter 23 – Accepting Him Wholly
REESE’S POV
After the hot love making we stayed in bed tangled to each other. Azrael pulled me in his arms, securing me like I would run away if he let me go. This man is utterly possessive, which I never knew before. I have seen Alpha Cassius and Alpha Hardwick’s downright possessiveness but never thought Azrael will be one of them too.
“How did you know that guy?” I heard him ask. I know who the guy he was referring to.
“I met him during the rescue of Savannah, my sister. She was brought by my parents, to tell the truth they kidnapped her. I didn’t know about it until I turned 18” I sighed. Talking about the past is something outrageous but it’s also something I couldn’t hide.
“You seem to hate her”
“I used to, actually without any reason. I thought she wanted to seduce Avan but in reality she turned out to be her mate. I was jealous and wanted to snatch him away from her. I was not thinking right and my mom said that’s the best thing to do, and I was born to be the Luna, not Savannah”
Azrael’s hold tightened around my body. I can feel his anger radiating from his body.
“Your mother is one thing, she is clearly taking you to the wrong path and even guiding you to walk on that way” he said through gritted teeth. “What kind of mother does such a thing?”
“I know now how irresponsible I was to believe her words. I coveted something that was not mine and gave up on things which were made for me. I thought having Avan would give me anything I want, power, title and love but I was wrong. That was just a fallacious thought of mine” I paused for a moment.
“After Savannah left, things started to change. No matter what I do I couldn’t get him satisfied, he started to crave for Savannah. But fortunately Savannah got another mate, her second chance. I guess she was lucky. Then things started to fall apart and my life turned miserable. In the meantime I got pregnant, though it gave me hope but in the end I lost it. It was my result of Karma. I was selfish, arrogant and a complete fool. I lost everything and I accepted it because that’s the only thing I could do”
Azrael clenched his jaw “what the fuck, he didn’t even cared about you”
“Because he never loved me” I smiled sadly. “He just fabricated his care to get benefits. So when Avan kidnapped Savannah, he hid her in his secret place. Alpha Hardwick went crazy and decided to attack the pack. I told him about the place where he saved his mate and that’s how escaped the destruction. At that time, it was Jamir who brought me back to the Dark Forest. We had small interaction but after I left Dark Forest I never saw him again”
“He came here all the way searching for you. That man has something for you”
I looked at him, “Are you still jealous?”
“I can’t help it and I won’t hide the fact, I am fucking jealous of him. If he could, he will claim you as his. I will fucking snap his head off his shoulder” he growled.
“You are thinking unnecessary things” I shook my head, “even if he has some liking, I need to agree on that first to process. And you know it well, it’s not going to happen”
He frowned “I am a man and I know what’s going on his mind. But he need to see if he could get closer to you first”
I chuckled “he won’t do it”
“As if I will let him” he groaned.
“You are utterly impossible. And also becoming so shameless day by day”
He grinned “only for you darling. You couldn’t accept me to sit back and relax when there could be chances for other man lurking around you”
I rolled my eyes “no one will do that. I lived two years as a rogue alone, remember?”
“And I lived two years thinking you are dead” his comment made me look at him. There was unexplainable sadness in the depth of his eyes. I remembered what Adriana said about him. Thinking all that now, my heart clenched painfully. Before I knew it, my hand reached out, cupping his face gently.
“You don’t know how precious you are. You deserve a woman who is pure and not ruined. Who doesn’t bear the black scar on her character, the one who saved herself for you. I wanted you to find the one who can complete you wholly” my emotions kicked in and suddenly my eyes blurred with tears.
He cupped my hand over his cheek “you are that woman. There’s no other woman who can complete me, make me happy, give strength to my wolf than you. There’s no one, or ever will be”
I shook my head “I can’t give you anything”
“You gave me everything. ” His reply made me choke and a sob escaped my mouth unknowingly. I can never imagine this man would say such a thing and again somewhere in my heart I was scared of his response. Thinking he would reject me just like Avan. Even though my past deeds don’t make me worthy of him, I just can’t let go of him and his love anymore.Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.
“Azrael I-” he kissed me, stopping me from my words.
“There’s no need to travel back to the past. I can endure anything as long as you are with me, by my side. I just want you to stay with me with a promise, you won’t leave” he said with seriousness.
At this moment, I couldn’t say no anymore. I knew I wanted him just the way he wanted me. I know I can’t wash my past deeds but I can work on what we have and we will have. Today all the doubts and resistance of heart finally disappeared and I accepted him fully.
“I am so sorry Azrael ” I cried out, hugging him tightly. “I am sorry I rejected you and made you live in pain. I hurt you in every way possible yet you are still so sweet and..” I sobbed hard and couldn’t continue anymore. I don’t care if I was naked, all I care is I have to seek forgiveness from him.
Azrael held me tightly in his arms, slowly rubbing my back. A gesture to calm me down “it’s fine, what happened has happened. I have you now in my arms and this is what I want. Just don’t leave me in future”
“I won’t, I will never leave you, I promise you” I replied.
He broke the hug and gave a huge smile “really?” He wiped my tears while I nodded.
“So you won’t plan on leaving me again?”
I shook my head “no, I told you I won’t leave”
He sighed “now I can have relief and work properly without worrying the fact when I return I won’t be able to see you”
I gasped “you think that way?”
“I couldn’t help it” he smiled “but from today onwards I guess I could focus on work”
“You are crazy, ” I chuckled. He raised an eyebrow.
“You think so?”
“Aren’t you?”
I squealed when he turned our position and pressed me on bed. He gave a smirk “let’s see if you could say that after this” and without giving me a chance, he pushed his hard cock inside making me scream. He fucked me harder than before to show me whom I belong to.
“Tell me you are mine” he whispered, pounding in me.
“I am yours… all yours” I moaned. I felt him sucking my nipples while his other hand was playing.
“Ohm.. God…. Azrael…”
“You are too sweet darling, my cock is always hard thinking about you” he spread my legs wide keeping them in firm hold.
I blushed seeing our position. When it comes to bed this man is unpredictable.
“I fucking like those blush, specially knowing the reason it was me” he kept thrusting hard and fast. His pace was so hard to match.
My body shivered and my core tightened, clenching around his cock as he groaned painfully.
“That’s it, love, show me how much you like it. Cum for your mate” his words made me clench harder and I let it go.
“Azrael…”
“Fuck” he cursed and pounded few more times before letting his seeds mix in me.
“You are so good, I can’t hold back myself” he said smiling.
I held his shoulder and panted “do you have to be so rough?”
“You like it darling. You can’t deny it” he grinned.
I shook my head at his act. He cupped my face and said with a firm look “I love you, since the day I found you”
I couldn’t help but feel my heart swell with happiness. His confession is so sweet, laced with emotions and sounds so good. So this is what it feels like to be loved by your mate.
“I love you too” I said and he grinned before kissing me again.
My wolf purred with happiness and I realized at this moment, I could never let go of this man.
Never.