Chapter 12
I inhaled softly, slowly getting what the dream was all about. I think the short sentence for it is * I shouldn’t give up *.
Mom had warned me about the stress she went through as a single mother, and she doesn’t want me to be one. She doesn’t want my baby to be with a different father or mother, and it seems my baby doesn’t want it too. So I shouldn’t want it.
I got off my bed, and headed straight to the bathroom, for some weird reasons, I just wanted to stay under the shower for as long as I can.
I don’t really know much about relationships, I have never dated a guy before and weirdly, I have never had a crush before. Yeah I know I’m weird.
I don’t know what to do to make Tyler fall for me, Ara is a pro in that, I should probably ask her or I could make some researches too.
Now, this is getting weird, I have never tried to make a guy love me but here I am, on my phone, trying to get how I can make a heartless dude love me. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t say Tyler was a wicked guy, I only meant he doesn’t have a heart to love. That’s how playboys are, all they do is break girls heart after fvcking them.
I really have bad luck tho, I mean out of every dude in this world, I was only able to meet a playboy and now I’m carrying his baby without his awareness. Such is life.
” First step, you have to make him think you don’t want him anymore ” I read out aloud with a scoff, he doesn’t even care about me. Why would he even think I want him?. All he thinks of me is an ugly cousin, why would he think I’m trying to make him fall for me.
” Yeah, you think he probably never notices you, yeah you’re right, but to catch a playboy’s attention, act like you don’t care ” I read out aloud. Wait, this sounds like the truth. I had read many novels about the playboy falling for the one girls that plays so hard to get.
Snap out of it Marvy, this is real, you ain’t in any fvcking novel!. But still, I think I should give it a try, but why would I act like I don’t care when I really don’t. I mean I haven’t showed any trait of me caring.
* Oh you did, by staring at him and hoping he could glance at you, and then by getting all suddenly jealous seeing him with a girl! * My Subconscious snapped at me and I scoffed, jealous indeed!.
I stood up swiftly from the bed and made my way out of the room.
I was almost making my way down the stairs when I began hearing silent moans.
My eyes widened as I suddenly hoped it wasn’t what I was thinking. I made my way to Tyler’s door and that cleared my doubt, I could hear the silent moans erupting from his room. Wait, the girl!?.
I didn’t want to believe this until the bi**tch started moaning Tyler’s name. My fist clenched into a tight jaw as I suddenly want to barge into the room but controlled myself.
I couldn’t stop the tears that rolled down my cheeks as I barged into my room.
What the hell!!, I’m here sulking!, paying for OUR sins!!, Struggling to live with the pain he had caused me but there he was enjoying himself with another bi**tch without caring about my feelings.
This is far away from my sweet dreams and imaginations, I never wanted all this!!.
I never wished I had a baby for a heartless father who doesn’t care about me or my baby!, I had imagined my peaceful life with my beautiful kids and husband, not with this fvcking scumbag cheat!!. I hate my life but I hate him more!!.
I screamed all these within my head as more tears rolled down my cheeks. As much as I want to continue, I want to keep trying, I don’t think I can, I don’t think I want to, it’s just the beginning and I’m getting tired already. My heart can’t hold much pain!.
I got to my senses and wiped my tears. Why am I crying?, He doesn’t deserve this!, He doesn’t deserve me!.
I wouldn’t have to go through this stress of trying to get a playboy like him fall in love with me!, But he was the cause of all these.
I don’t think I can leave my heart for someone like him, I don’t want him. I should only make him fall In love with me, then get into a loveless marriage with him.
I ruffled my hair as I sat in front of the mirror, I’m pretty, every guy would want me, I just had to get into this mess and now I have to stick with someone I wouldn’t want or like.
I think I should stick with the Google’s instruction, act like I don’t care. Not like I do before, I only care about my innocent baby.
Yeah, you can do this. I inhaled softly as I packed my hear into a ponytail. His mom wants me to give up but I wouldn’t. She wants to see me slacking off, she wants to see me hurt by watching Tyler flex with other girls while I can’t do the same cause I have his baby in me. But I’ll show her it’s a lie, I’ld show her I can do things a normal thing can do, which includes making friends with other guys.
She shouldn’t care right?, Since she never wanted me for her son. I smirked at this huge plan before making my way out of my room and I was headed downstairs.
I got to the living room and almost immediately Tyler and the bit*ch appeared looking all sweaty, looks like they had a nice time. Our gaze met but I did the honor of looking away first.
I smiled secretly, My first achievement!.Text © owned by NôvelDrama.Org.
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