Beastly

Chapter 48

We never had dinner that night.

My little adventurous decision left me almost guilt-ridden and dwelling in maximum shame. I was alone

now, in bed, wearing the most random shirt I had ever seen. I had pulled it off the clothes hanger after

drying my hair off and hopped into my bed. Closing my eyes for a split second, my mind played back

the events of last night. He had kissed me. I had let him. One moment, we were making out

passionately in front of the hospital and the next, we were walking back awkwardly to the house under

the pouring rain. On my request. I had hoped the rain would cool us both down and by the time we

would reach home, all traces of my arousal would be washed off.

I still remember the feeling of his fingers brushing against my skin as he peeled off my wet clothes. It

was like we had both been on a high; one that drove me off the edge and had left me wanting for

something I couldn't quite understand. Despite the heavy tension, Xander hadn't pushed for more and

had let me go. I couldn't imagine if it was hard for him as it was for me. The only thing that had stopped

me from going past the point of no-return was the flashes of horrible memories that were triggered.

As I got up, I allowed my senses to have full control and realised Xander wasn't in the house. It was a

plus for me because that meant I would be able to steel my spine before facing him today. Hurriedly

taking a shower, I got dressed in warmer clothes and went downstairs. Gladys was in the kitchen, as

usual, making breakfast. She turned to give me the brightest smile she saw me and I couldn't even Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

ignore the gleam she had in her eyes.

"Good morning Luna Ava." she chirped. Her usual behaviour would make me feel better, but all I

wanted was to allow my emotions to roll over till they were purged out of my system.

"Good morning." I said, taking a seat at the counter. I placed my head into my hands as I listened to her

move around. Today was a new day, I needed to go see Marcus in the hospital and possibly get

Xander and Cole to have a conversation with him. I wouldn't be able to avoid Xander for long. I wasn't

planning to either

I just needed time to accept what had happened and accept that I had indeed gone crazy at this point.

This was the only solution to not letting myself give in to what I was feeling. Pretending it never

happened was definitely out of the question.

"You wanna talk about it?" my head lifted to look at Gladys as she placed a plate of piping hot food in

front of me

"Talk?" I asked, glancing at the food on the plate for a second

"You're not exactly in a good mood. You've been sighing so much since you sat there, I'm sure

something is eating you up." she responded, leaning on the counter on the other side "Is this about the

Alpha?"

My eyebrows rose in question and I averted my eyes, pulling the food closer to me "Why would you

think so?"

"Well, for one, he was in the most wonderful mood this morning. I'd never seen him as happy as he

was this morning and here you are, the complete opposite." I met her eyes again and found them

watching me softly "You're the only one capable of making him that happy and I thought you'd be the

same. I guess I was wrong."

Why wouldn't he be happy? After all my big talk of never giving in to him, I had practically offered

myself to him on a silver platter. I shouldn't even be mad at him. He had asked me before doing

anything and I had given him the green light.

"I doubt that. He has everything he could ever want. Maybe it was just a rare day for him." She

hummed as I stuffed my face with macaroni and cheese

"If it's like that, then let's forget about him. Why are you upset?"

"I'm not upset."

"I don't know if you've noticed dear, but I've spent a long time on this earth and I can tell when a woman

is having boy trouble." A giggle escaped my lips. Xander was definitely not a boy. What I had felt

pressing into every part of me last night was definitely a man.

I groaned again as my mind took me back to last night and I glared at her a little.

"Can we not do this right now?" I literally begged

"If you talk to me, then we won't. But..." she trailed off, giving me a pointed look that showed that she

would definitely not let this go. I chewed on my bottom lip, contemplating before releasing a sigh of

resignation

"We kissed." I mumbled lowly

"What was that?"

"We kissed. I let him kiss me."

The response was a gasp followed by silence. My head lifted to see if she was still there and I found

her staring back with wide eyes and a mouth that was fully ajar. She was frozen in place but a moment

later, a loud shriek tore through the air and made my ears ring in irritation. My hands covered them as I

winced but they didn't stay up for long as she rounded the counter and pulled my hands into hers.

"Why are you so excited?" I asked, genuinely confused

"The question is, why aren't you?!" I had never seen Gladys act like such a schoolgirl "So you let him?

Does that mean he made the first move? This means Beta Cole owes me money."

"Owes you money? What?" she didn't even show any form of guilt, only giggling at me "You two were

betting on us?"

"Of course we were. Beta Cole instigated it of course and I was pretty hesitant, but I got so invested

later on when I saw how you guys were acting around each other."

"Do you know the problem with all this? It's this place and the people."

"What do you mean?" Seeing as she had calmed down, I gently pulled my hands out of her grasp,

trying my best not to be irritated

"This environment isn't good for me. I want to stay away from him. I don't want to be with him, but

everything around us is gradually pushing us together. You guys really want me to be with the man that

tried to murder me on countless occasions? It's too chaotic to even think about."

"So you're saying it's because of us that you did what you did?"

"Of course not."

"Then what is it then?"

"I don't know!"