Chapter 13: I'm The Reason
Chapter 13: I'm The Reason
Kyle's POV
It's funny how as humans we say things in the heat of the moment and then, later on, you end up
regretting it.
I sigh and rest my head back on the chair. What kind of hell hole did I get myself in?
My plan was simple, get a beautiful, intelligent girl and pay her to have my baby. It should have been
that simple and I got what I wanted but I abused it. I got used to having the girl around and when she
decided to stop giving me what I wanted, sex, I turned against her.
I stared down at the letter Jade wrote to me. The biggest mistake of my life was treating her the way I
did. She deserved so much more.
Her letter began by saying. "It's funny how looks can be deceiving. You see a handsome gentleman on
the outside and when you get to know that gentleman, he becomes your worse nightmare."
She hates me now. In the letter, she said that she had overheard me speaking to Lenard about her,
about me paying me. In a way, I just called her a whore. She said that was the lowest she ever felt in
her life. No one had ever disregarded her body as I had done, No one had hurt her as I did.
She said a person's private life should be private and not in the light for everyone to know. She said,
"Imagine what your friend might be thinking of me now. What a whore! As she gets the money she
jumps in bed. I'm just saying I don't what your friend is like but news travels, how would I feel if a man
just starting coming to me thinking that I'm 'easy'. I don't want anyone to see me as the woman that you
paid to have sex and have a child. I want to be known as the woman you chose to have your child
because I am intelligent."
She was right, our private life should have been ours and not anyone else. It made me see that I
crossed a border. I didn't choose her because she was easy, I chose her because wasn't. She was just
perfect for what I wanted my child's mother to be like. I made her look bad.
I have now come to realize what a jerk I had been to her. I really never took her feelings into
consideration in anything I did. I only thought about my needs and never of hers.
The contract never about sex, it was about conceiving a baby. But a man can't get enough of alcohol
once he's had a taste. There was no way on earth could I have resisted her, the more I got the more I
wanted. The more I wanted was the more I couldn't do without.
Now she regrets ever meeting me. Ever coming in my office, every agreeing to my plans. In her letter,
she made it care she won't be contacting me until she gave birth. She has every right to be angry and
upset but no right to keep me from my child.
A child needs his father in every step of life. That way the child will have an emotional bond with the
father. I want to be apart of every decision she has to make. I want my child to have everything that I
never had when growing up, a relationship with my dad.
I close my laptop and grab my car keys.
I need to apologize to her and get our problems sorted out because there is no way I won't be there for
my child.
I quickly got in my car.
The quicker I went to see her, the easier for her to compromise. She might not let me in her apartment
and she definitely wouldn't want to see me after all the hurt and pain I caused her.
But a sincere apology can mean so much.
I looked at the face that greeted me and it wasn't the one I wanted to see.
"What are you doing here?" Joshua asked. "If you're here to ask her to come back to that job then think
again." I was surprised he knew about me. Jade and I never had any in-depth conversation that
involved her younger brother.
"I'm not here to ask her to come back, I'm here to speak to her."
"Well, she's not here and if she was then she wouldn't want to speak to you." He paused and looked at
me from head to toe. "What kind of man would fire his secretary because she fell pregnant? Isn't that
when she needs the money more? When she finds out that she won't be providing for just herself but
always also a baby? What kind of man are you?" As he rants on, I came to realize that she never told
him that it was the same boss that fired her that got her pregnant. Then who did she tell him was the
father?
"I'm sorry but I had to do what was best for my company. I don't have time to be talking to you about
the decision I made. Where is your sister? I need to talk to her, it's important."
"She's not here."
"So...where is she?"
He stayed silent for a second maybe trying to come with a lie. "She's out of town."
"Stop lying." him only being a few inches shorter than me I was able to look over his shoulder. "Jade, I
need to talk to you. I know you're there."
He lets out a little laugh. "Dude, I'm not lying, you can go and check the apartment if you don't believe
me." I looked over his shoulders again. "Go!"
I sigh accepting that he might actually be telling the truth. "Where can I find her?"
"She's out of town. She will be back in about two weeks," he stated.
"I didn't ask when she'll be back, I asked where she is." Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g
A smile becomes visible on his face. "I don't know where she is, only she knows. She told me she
needed time to be alone and to think about all the things that have been happening to her in the past
few years."
"Why are you smiling? You think it's funny that a woman like your sister is out there all by herself.
Something can happen to her." I was angry at him but not as much as how angry I am at myself. It was
my fault she's out there, needing to be alone from the world.
"I'm laughing because you came to see her but you can't because only she knows where she is."
I shake my head and sigh.
"She's okay. She will perfectly fine. She has been looking after herself for a long time now. When she
comes back she'll be happy and that's all that matters."
She'll be happy. Which means she wasn't happy with her current situation. The situation that I placed
her in.
"Okay, I'll be here in two weeks."
In all the ways of my life, I've never felt so disappointed in myself. She'll be happy, I made her sad, I
was the reason why she was only God knows where in America. I'm the reason why she had to take a
break from the world. The world that had made her so unhappy. I'm the reason why she was so
unhappy. I made her a deal that I need she couldn't ignore. One that at the time I seemed like the best
thing to do.
I was the reason for her unhappiness and because she's unhappy I can't seem to be happy either.