Chapter 46: Heartache
Chapter 46: Heartache
He didn't expect his sun to run right past him while William went into his knees to pick him up, instead, Samuel ran towards Sherry, and said excitedly, "Sherry, what are you doing here?”
William was stunned, what on earth, who's son are you?
When Sherry saw Samuel like that, she felt a little twitch in her heart, this child had no mother his whole life, so he felt so close to Sherry, a person he had only met once.
She was a woman with a soft heart, and when she saw a child like that, her eyes reddened, she lowered herself to hug him tight, "Samuel, I am here to visit you, have you been a good boy in kindergarten?”
"Yeah! I have been good, will you come to pick me up again with Daddy next time?" He was already thinking about the next day, this little boy really made Sherry's heart ache.
She nodded her head, eyes still reddened, “Good boy, I will come often to see you!"
Sherry looked at Samuel, her eyes filled with love, he was such a sweet boy, just as sweet as Daniel, she reached out to comb his hair with her fingers, then she fixed his clothes as well. This gestures were
filled with motherly love.
William saw all this, and looked away, his eyes seemed to be watery, but it was only for a blink of an eye, and he quickly caught himself again, "Samuel, have you forgotten about your Dad?"
“Daddy!” Samuel lowered his head a little embarrassed, then he came towards William, who bend over to pick him up.
"Son, didn't I give you a huge surprise today? Are you happy?"
Samuel was a little shy, and laid his head on William's shoulder, then he said in a small voice, "Daddy, my teachers said that you came with Mommy to pick me up! Did you tell my teachers that Sherry is my mom?”
William thought for a while before he nodded, then he whispered back, “Don't tell Sherry, if you tell her, she won't come to see you again, alright?”
“But why did you say that she was my mom?" William paused, then he smiled.
“Don't you like her?"
“I do!"
“What are you two whispering about?” Sherry saw that they were pillow talking, and couldn't help but to interrupt.
"Nothing!"
"Nothing!"
The two of them said at the same time.
“Aha!” Sherry laughed, it was easier to forget about the worries in life when being with a child, it was time for lunch, and she was wondering if Daniel was taking good care of himself.
A child who had no father was quite pitiful, but a child who had no mother even more. Sherry remembered her own son again, who had been taken from her, she wondered how he was doing, if
someone was caring and loving him.
Samuel came down from William's arms, and ran towards Sherry to hold her hand.
By that time, there were already a lot of children in front of the classroom, all of them were surrounding William and Sherry, some of them were even yelling, "Samuel, those are your parents, aren't they?”
"Samuel, your Dad is so handsome!” A little girl screamed, "Wow, much more handsome than my Dad, Samuel, can I have your Daddy?”
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When Samuel heard those children scream and yell, he looked up at Sherry with a shy face, she was so nice not to tell them the truth.
Then, he gathered all his courage and yelled back, "Who said I didn't have a mother, my mom is right here, she came to visit me!"
Sherry was startled, and her eyes reddened again.
William looked at her from the side, and leaned closer, then he put an arm around her waist, and said, “Thank you, I thank you on behalf of my son to let him have his moment!”
Even though she didn't like to lie, but she was satisfied as she saw how happy little Samuel was, he was smiling all over, and she suddenly felt that it was worth the trip over.
"Son, why don't we go have some fun?" William said.
When Samuel heard that, he was overly excited, and then shook his head. He stood there for a while, deep in his thoughts, while William and Sherry were looking at him confused, after a long time, he said haltingly, "But today is not weekend, and in the afternoon we will learn some new words, I do think that is a great idea, but, Grandpa said I have to study hard!"
“Huh! William was startled, then he laughed, and poked his son's nose, “Well, my son knows how important studies are, that is great!”
Because of that, Sherry felt even more sorry for Samuel, she thought of Daniel, who also worked hard in such a young age, they should be playing, but he was always like a little adult, which made her feel a
twitch in her heart.
These children were really so lovely.
“What a good boy, I really like you so much!” Sherry patted Samuel's cheek, "I will come more often to visit you!”
“Yeah!” When Samuel heard Sherry's promise, he felt even more excited, and started to wave Sherry’s hand back and forth, "Sherry, I wish you were my mother!"
“Huh! Sherry's heart went cold, she saw how serious he was about that, and smiled, then she turned around and saw William, who looked at her and said, "I like Samuel's idea, Miss Murray, I think you should give it a thought!”
Sherry paused for a while, gosh, how could a bad and evil person like Mr. Rowland have such a cute and sweet little boy like Samuel? That was so weird!
"Don't you need to work this afternoon, Mr. Rowland?" Sherry was still smiling while Samuel was there.
“Yeah, well, someone was gloriously injured, I do think that I need to be around then, like a quard, work isn't as important. Ms. Murray, have you thought about my son's idea yet?”
It was just a child's thought, but why does it sound so ambiguous coming from him? Was he looking for trouble again?
Samuel didn't quite understand, and raised his big round eyes to look at his dad, then he looked at Sherry again, and asked in a trembling voice, ‘Don't you like me,
Sherry? I am a good boy, please be my Mommy? I promise I will always be good, all the other kids have their mom, but I don't.”
Sherry listened to him, but couldn't say anything, she felt as if there was a rock on her chest, cutting off her air, this little child was talking in such a careful manner, as if he was afraid she wouldn't agree to him.
She didn't say anything, and raised her head to look at William, he was clearly so high-spirited and vigorous, but in her eyes, he was simply lonely, even if he was the William Rowland who was always surrounded by people, but in that moment, he was just lonely.
Sherry didn't know how to answer to Samuel.
William came over to pick up his son, “Alright, boy, stop pushing her, she needs some time!”
Samuel looked on the ground, disappointed, why didn't Sherry want to be his mom? He really liked her!
"Sherry..." Samuel said.
"Yeah?"
“Is it because I am not good enough? So you don't want to be my mom yet?"
*... Sherry wanted to say something, but had a frog in her throat. This little boy was so pitiful, he was so careful, so sweet and naive.
William turned his face to the side, and didn't speak.
“No, Samuel, that's not it, you have your own Mom, don't you worry, you are so cute, your Mom would be reluctant to leave you. You are such a good boy, I like you a lot!"
“Can't you?” Samuel looked very helpless because his request was denied, the hugged William tight and buried his face in William's neck, his eyes were filled with tears, but they didn't roll down his cheeks.
When Sherry saw Samuel emotional, she felt as if knives were stabbing her heart, she realized how good this little boy was, so good that anyone would have loved him, how did William lose his wife?
William's eyes showed his emotions which Sherry didn’t understand what he was thinking, Sherry's eyes met his, and he was staring at her quietly.
But, she could see that his emotions were complicated.
She sighed, and her tears rolled down her cheeks, she went over to them, and took over Samuel form William's arms, "Sorry, Samuel, sorry:
"Sherry..." Samuel hugged her, and wiped her tears with his little hands, "Don't cry, I won't mention it again, please don't cry, it was all my fault”
Samuel!
Sherry felt really bad, "You are a good kid, you didn't do anything wrong, you don't have to apologize to me, I can be your godmother, but not your Mom, because not anyone can be your Mom. You have your own mother, and when she comes back, she will love you even more!"
William closed his eyes, turned around and lit a cigarette.
"Really?" Samuel raised his head to look at Sherry, "She will love me? But why did she leave me?"
Sherry looked at William, that is a question to ask him, how should she know? But he was just standing there smoking his
cigarette, and looked even more lonely the way he was standing there, surrounded by smoke.
They played with Samuel for a while, then it was time to have class again, and they left.
When they were standing at the alley, William asked again, "Ms. Murray, will you really not think about it?”
Sherry's heart started to race. She didn't reply to him, as soon as the car stopped, she got out.
"Sherry..."
William got out too, and pulled her hand.
Before he could say anything, she turned around, and looked at him in the eyes, "Mr. Rowland, I feel really sorry for your son, you need to find him a mother instead of trying to find women to satisfy your own needs!"
He was surprised, didn't expect this is what she would say, his expression was unpredictable, until in the end, he knitted his brows, “You think I am just playing you?"
"You know that better than me, and Mr. Rowland, I wanna tell you, I am not a virgin, I had a child, I gave birth to a child, I am not the person you should be engaging with, I am not suitable to be a lover,
not even to be a wife!"
She looked very determined, Daniel was all she needed in her life.
She didn't ask for more.
She only wanted to see her own son again one day, that was enough.
William suddenly laughed.
It wasn't a warm laughter, but neither was it cold, he let go of her hand, then reached out to rub her head. The gesture had some kind of pampering in it, while Sherry's face blushed, her heart raced and she had trouble breathing. She took a big step back, and wanted to get away from that gesture, but he didn't accept that, and took a big step toward her again, pushing her against his Bugatti.
“If I say that I am serious, and don't care that you have had a child or not?”
She was shocked, his words were surprising to her, and almost made her heart stop.
He stared at her with sparkling eyes, while she looked like a scared little animal, panicking.
She knew that she couldn't allow herself to be too close to him, the smell on him would cause her not to know what to do, cause her head to go blank, as if her head was in the clouds.