A Girl in My Life

And there we go, once more to the so beloved human world, I feel something strange in my chest, my heart pumps strongly, I feel my fingertips give a slight tremor… How will it come out? This time I’m not going to observe, but to fight in protection of the human.

I look at Zaniel beside me, if he is anxious, only observing his face it is not possible to know, he is calmly serious, in his hands there is a notebook to write down everything that the human does right and wrong, attached to him there is a special sky blue feather, it is special because it is not necessary the use of ink to write.

– Are you anxious for the first mission? – I have a lot of talking, this silence is driving me crazy.Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.

– I might even be if I were to perform what I was really created to do – he says coldly.

I understand, I mean… I think I understand, it can’t be easy to prepare yourself for a whole year and in the end end end up doing another angel’s mission. I can’t say that I know which feeling it is, because I always knew that my duty was to stay with this notebook, but I always prepared my body to fight, always hoping to have a different destiny.

– I am sorry that it is you who has to exchange places with me – I speak with my head down, not wanting to cause even more difference between us.

– No problem, everyone knows that for you all human beings would have had their existence extinguished and new human beings created.

– Do you think you will have to write down a lot of things today? – I try to change the direction of that conversation.

– I’m just taking it for the sake of taking it, I don’t need to make notes until she is three years old – I didn’t know that information.

– Why? – I can’t hide the curiosity in my voice.

– She still has no conscience of what is right and wrong, she has no notion of anything at all, she is a pure and innocent being.

With this information I even feel guilty, but if humans are not born bad, what made them fall so low?

In the midst of these thoughts Zaniel and I land in front of the portal. Zaniel hands one of the guardians the authorization, he takes it, stamps it and puts it in the mail to return to Suriel’s office.

– Good luck, and may the lord bless you and that you return safely – they speak and push us inside the portal.

Here inside nothing makes sense, the colours are mixed, in my ears buzzing is present, I have already crossed this portal twice, but I still can’t get used to it.

“I wonder what he meant by ‘come back safely’ ? – I think before being launched into the earth’s atmosphere, here gravity is heavier, it takes me a few seconds until my wings get used to it again.

– Follow me – Zaniel says and so I do.

I notice that we are going outside the city, and we are flying very high, so high that the human beings look like little ants. Zaniel goes down in a nook outside the city, here it is empty, without any human being around. I frown, why are we here?

– You missed a lot of practical classes, so I imagine you don’t know that humans can see us.

– I was here yesterday, and none of them saw me,” I say, not understanding what Zaniel is talking about.

– Probably coach Suriel used something to hide his presence – he says rolling his eyes – Pay attention, humans can’t see us at all!

– But if Suriel used something to hide my presence, what do I do now? – I feel my fingertips freeze again.

– Concentrate, when you manage to become translucent, your eyes will change colour, they are blue right now, but when you hide your presence they will become black – Zaniel is clear in his explanation.

I take a deep breath, I shake my hands in an attempt to stop the cold sweat, I close my eyes and try to concentrate as much as possible, I close my hands into fists, I see a thin thread in a bright blue colour, its colour is getting weaker and weaker, I calm my breathing even more and this thread is totally in the most complete darkness. Then I open my eyes.

– My most sincere congratulations, it is the first time that I witness an angel manage to become translucent in his first attempt – he says and I smile proud of myself – Well, now let us go to meet “our” protected one.

As soon as he finishes speaking he picks up momentum and flies again, the difference is that now he flies lower, a little above the humans’ heads. I put my sword on my waist and follow him.

It doesn’t take long and we reach our destination, different from the first time, we didn’t go to the hospital, we landed in front of a small house, its walls are cream coloured. We go through the door, and in the living room the first thing we see is a child sitting playing with a doll, I look curious, who is this child? Her hair is dark brown with loose curls, she seems to be more or less one year old, but how? Yesterday I saw her being born!

– Is this playtime!? – I see the blonde haired woman appear, her appearance is tired and bad It’s not enough to be defective! – she ignorantly takes the doll from the girl’s hand and throws it on the floor, holds the child’s arm and leaves dragging her along the corridor.

I stare at that scene.

– Who is this child Zaniel? – I ask without understanding anything of what I just saw.

– That’s Elisa, don’t you recognize her? – he asks me with a raised eyebrow.

– But I saw her being born yesterday! How come she’s already that big! – I ask incredulously.

– The time here is not like in paradise, Anael, one day for us there, is one year here – my jaw drops to the floor with this information.

– And how are we going to go back and forth every day to paradise? – I hope things don’t get even worse.